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elloooooo ehehe ((waves excitedly))
havent update my blog for ages, i think almost 7 or 8 months lek dat
i rly dont have that ''omg i want to blog'' feels, rly dont even feel that anymore for realllll.
and i didnt even change anything on my blog bcs laziness overload ahahaa
i've been chillin out on tumblaaa, judging you if you dont hv one ahaha jk
my life is getting even more miserable than ever, couldnt get away from dat tho
everything is getting moreeeeee complicated not even gonna lie
some peasants at school are trying to bring me down just why guys i didnt even do anything
they rly need to leave me alone since i didnt even bother dem at all
they are so pissed off at me wthout any fuckin reason
are you kidding me nigguhh, its not like i went on a secret date with your asshole boyfriend duhh
oh, maybe im just too fab for dem and thats why they're so pissed off ahaha
i've been depressed alot this year and i've self-harmed multiple times
i just cant take those bullshit anymore, they're killing me slowly hmm
but im trying to recover now, i havent cut for 2 months im rly proud of myself tbh
i'd lek to thanks alia so fckin much bcs she's the one that keep making me feel so not worthless
and umm p/s, i write what i want on my blog, you dont have to be so judgemental or psychotic
i have a lot of things to write but oh its not like anyone gonna read my blog anyway ahaha
probably its just me creeping on my own blog reading my entry again and again
its monday today and umm i rly dont feel lek going to school tomorrow bcs ; peasants
and umm the other thing is i feel lek doing my homeworks ahaha thats the main reason for sure
oh well, but im getting my ipod in 1 or 2 more weeks, aaaaa ((screams)) cant wait
i'll write whatever i want i dont need you to tell me k
; Helmi Redzuan
((you're so cute mehmehh ily))
So ummm, basically thats Helmi yeayyyy woooooooooo
who is he, what is he doing durr, is he related to me
ahahahaa he is helmi guiiseeeee, i have a huge crush on him shhh this is our secret ;)
but guiiseee, help mehh he is lek 4 years older than me, aint that weird huh
i dont rly care hmm, he's so cute let me tell you something that you cant see there
he have dimples, i repeat again dimples
ahaha, he's rly fckin cute adorable i just want to pull his cool hair quiff aaaa
but the only thing i dont rly like about him is umm he is a kpop fanatic ahahaha omg
you have the right to laugh and you kpoppers out there pls give him a round of applause
its not like that i hate kpop so much, its just im not into kpop at all ahaha except running man
it've been 10 days since i have a crush on him, well well well i have a cute crush
what do i have to worry about? ahahaha EVERYTHING, he's cute so that means ..
any girls can have a crush on him and he can choose any of dem uhuks ((incl alia lol))
im still waiting tho, still waiting not gonna stop i'll creep ehehehe
am i creepy yet? lol my sisturr ex-bf umm abang hafiz is helmi's classmate
i told him to send my lovely regard to helmi ahaha and he did
i asked abang hafiz what did he told helmi and he said that he told him this ;
''helmi, secret dimples admire hang kirim salam''
ahaha, thanks god abang hafiz told him my cool or umm creepy nickname
so i asked abang hafiz how helmi reacted to dat and he said
''helmi jawab salam, gelak and senyum-senyum''
im so happy tho yeayyyyyyy
haish, when can i meet him siaa
he's such a sweetheart, hmm helmi cant we just get married already?
i dont care if alia is my madu lol as long as i can be with helmi ehehe
wellll, nuff said bout helmi xx
byebyeee guys hahaha i'll put on another entry later on, going on tumbr now
adios amigos lebiuu helmi